Post 10: my cup

November 30, 2023

There are people in my life who are a testament to God’s presence on this earth. As Christians, we are taught to “let our light shine,” or rather, let the light of Jesus shine through us. We are created to be vessels. And it’s an absolutely incredible thing to experience this. It is literally a glimpse into Heaven.

There are people in my life who are so good that I feel undeserving to even know them. And I don’t even know how to describe why, but it’s just so easy. What’s easy? Everything. It’s a weird sensation. The only way I can think to verbalize it is that they fill my cup, and I can only pray that I fill theirs, too. Is this part of what life is all about?

I think incredible people have always surrounded me. And although Jesus’ light did shine through, I think the literal cloud of toxicity I lived in dampened my perspective and prohibited me to see or experience people in all their glorious depth. It’s so upsetting that I didn’t have the mental acuity to acknowledge the extraordinary humanity of people for so long, and I’ll be damned if I waste another second. I feel like I’ve been deprived for so long and now I’m breathing again and it’s like…surreal. Deprived of what? I’m not quite sure, but I’m grateful I don’t feel how I used to. It’s beautiful. And liberating. And I am so, so freaking thankful.

I’ll be forever striving to fully cherish the God-given souls in my life who literally fill my cup with an elixir of love and goodness. They make me feel accepted and acceptable. And happy.

whyiscchappy? Good people. Squash (the vegetable, not the sport). Blueberries & Christmas sweaters. And these songs:

• like you — Meyta

• Gratitude — I AM THEY

• Come On Love — Jimmy Clifton